About me

I'm a normal person.

I'm in my twenties.
I'm married.
I have two {beautiful} children
I love to play softball.
I like to bowl.
I volunteer at my children's school {probably a little too much!}

See? I am normal..... most of the time.

There is just a week every month that I'm not normal.  In that week I'm still a mother but a very poor one. I still play softball but I am very tired and feel weak.  I still volunteer but I don't talk unless I have to.

I'm in very good spirits right now because I started my period  on Tuesday (TMI? oh whatever).  When I start my period I get back to myself instantly. Like really. In one snap of a finger I'm *me* again. It's actually a very weird feeling.  I go to bed one night very early because I am so upset/tired and wake up feeling refreshed.  I love those mornings.

But in about 3 weeks I'll be sharing a room with the ugly stepsister. No even worse, I'll turn into her. I don't even know what to call myself. It's not Keri I'll tell you that.  Maybe I can make up a name for the other person I become. 

When it's my turn for the week of hell these are the emotions I'm feeling:

- I'm sad. {No suicidal thoughts though... thank the Lord}
- I cry for no reason whatsoever. Multiple times.
- I feel like life is pointless {but I know it isn't}
- I have panic attacks.
- I have heart palpitations {which is very scary to me!}
- I wake up every night and it takes about an hour to fall back asleep.
- I have very bad anger.  {shivering just thinking about it}
- I'm extremely irritable.
- I have mega mood swings. {holy moly!!!}
- I have headaches which only make me into a bigger meanie head.
- I am SO TIRED!!  {Like 7pm bed-time tired}
- I have many verbal outbursts.  {I get mad over the silliest things but at the time they are very important}

I don't know if I have anything else. I'll make sure I keep a log next time. Oh wait- that's what this blog is for! I want to track my behavior and feelings.